"Be the master of your mind, not a slave of your flesh"

Today has been a roller coaster for me..
I've learned once again that God has teach me about taking control.
But He never fails in letting me know..sometimes I just don't listen to Him.

This morning, I was punished for what I've done.
My leader said something to correct my actions for not showing up at CG and I take it the other way around and take it as offending.
It might be because I'm just in my period and being so emotional I lost in the battle against my hormone! Can you believe it that your biggest enemy is yourself?

But I thanked God that from just watching movies, I learned and gained my strength back..
I was lost..I lied too much..I procrastinate too much..
God want to show me that I either make it right or that's it for me!

Thanked God that He took His time to show me..to warn me..
If I continue like this, I will be such a hyprocate!

I was drawn in this mess of bussines..I was drown in this list of lies..
I was out off excuses..
I need to stop this madness...need to get a hold of my self..
Need to pull my self up..
The world doesn't made for you, you have to create your own world
You have to reach for your own dream!

It's about time for me to balance my work and life..
No more self pity..where my energetic and happy Y?
Did I let the old happy Y died? No!
I still have it inside of me..I just need to find it and remember it.
My character right now has develop...but doesn't mean that I got to lose the old me..
Keep the good one, through the bad one..
God loves the way I am..I'm created unique..
I am the way I am..I might have some bad characters that God wants to erase..but God basically already loves me..so I better keep the old me..the original me..the way God keeps and excepts me all this time..

Tomorrow is better than today and yesterday!
Tomorrow, I will be renew by His blood again!
I'm fighting this war with Him..His love sufficient enough..
God..please keep Your patient with me..
Please wait for me..I'm right behind You..I'll keep up!

I'll sometimes walk slow, walk fast or run
I'll sometimes stop at all, or fall, or dragging my feet
But I won't turn my back on You Lord!

Give me the strength to move on..
To keep my feet in this road..

I love You Lord..I really Do..