MONEY-MONEY-MONEY

Ok, let's talk about MONEY!
To be honest, I don't like to talk about it but I believe that it's about time!

Here it goes...
It started from God as I always believe...every single coincident is God's work..
So yesterday, suddenly got this idea or burden or urge, you choose, but i just suddenly think that all of this time i've been living with lots of skins..layers of skins in my life..
Sudden self reflect time..and it came to my mind an idea of really living everything behind..get rid of this layers of skins of lies.
I felt that all this time, being buying expensive shoes, living my expensive life style, behaving like someone important, all of that make me feel strange..
Like i lost myself into it..i wasn't like this before..it's about INSECURITY..
I felt very insecure with who i am, and what people think i am.
I keep putting new layers after another..thinking..imagining...believing to be somebody..something more than before..
More expensive purses..more expensive cars....smarter person..more leadership..more accomplishment..more achivements...more and more self righteous..
But none of it is important for God..even everytime I judge my self..God never judge me..

Then i'm thinking..what on earth the kind of life that i've been living? it's the right one?
Obviously not!so what can I do?
Well..as usually..when u are confuse..lost..You ask GOD!

So I did..I ask God..I ponder into Him..last nite..I spoke to Him..I pray..I don't know where to start but i just pour it all out to Him..
I broke down into tears..I started to pray about lots of things..

Conclusion? I'm going to change..
First step?
1. Fasting and Praying for 40 days..
2. Develop relationship with God..
3. Change my bad habit..my sins
4. Stop any addiction..
5. Self reflect everyday...
6. Do the act...
7. Always has positive words coming out of my mouth..
8. Produce happy thoughts, happy prays, happy attitude..

So we'll see how this goes..but I know it will change my life for the better..

How this tide back to MONEY?
oh well..hehhe...sorry for the long detour..but one of my change in habit and taking of my skins of lies or insecure is by stopping my Credit Card.
Money is not everything..but I'm addicted to it..not addicted in owning it..but addicted in spending it..I'm depending on money so much..

And today while going back home and stuck in the traffic..i listen to Oprah and Sarah's show about financing your money or about money it self..
it teaches you about saving and how positive and happy life attract you to power and money.
Quite confusing at first..but interesting too..

So anyway, tomorrow will be a day without credit card!

Yeahh..