Have Finally Change my SKIN

Just watched the movie FAME and got reminded again about my dream!

I am very jealous with all the kids who are playing in the movie.

They are living their dream...what about me?

My favorite quote from the movie that I might paraphrase :

>"Success is waking up every morning and fells like flying out of the bed because what you are going to do that day"

>"success is working with friends that shared the same dream and compassion"

>"success is love"

If that is the definition of success, then I am far from it yet.

If my life is my dream, i am not living my dream yet.

Life is only once..and i don't want to ruin it and live for nothing.

My oldest uncle just passed away yesterday. I was shocked. I happen so sudden and it was tragic. He always alone. He don't have family other than us, but we can't be counted as family either. I don't know if he ever felt satisfy or happy. All i know is that I haven't done enough for him. I haven't thanked him enough. He died alone, baring the pain alone..

Life is short...live like we are dying.

Just like the song by Kriss Allen, we gonna live like we're dying.

So if tomorrow I am going to die, I will honestly tell you that I will regret it.

I am grateful that I am far blessed compare to many people.

I have been to many places, I have my degree, friends, I have tried many things.

But still I will feel regret. Because I have not achieve SUCCESS.

I have never wake up feeling very excited about the day.

Never go to sleep feeling satisfied of what I did that day.

isn't it sad? I have never felt all that?

That is why I will regret it if I die right now.

I know God has a PURPOSE in my life.

For now, I know that my passion is reaching out to young adult.

But i wouldn't say that I am successful in that.

For sure I know that my old job is not my dream job since i don't felt excited waking up.

So now, given the chance to turn it all around.

To start something new.

To start fresh..I am confuse.

I am scared to face what I know I am about to face.

I am scared to face my parents about how we are going to solve our family problem with my aunt and cousin since my only uncle who support them passed away?

How am I going to face my parents complain and condemnation about my believe.

How am I going to walk by faith when all i see in front of me waiting is distraction.

How am I going to life my live to fulfill my dream if all i see and hear is to make money.

For now, I don't know

But a wise person told me this :"You are who you said you are"

" Your life is what you believe in your mind"

" Your perspective is what you are inside"

So although i am scared and struggling.

Although I know I will persecuted.

Although I know I will feel discomfort.

Although I know I will be stretch beyond my imagination.

Thanked GOD, I have HOPE and my DREAM from my FAITH in GOD.

I have GOD, who hold my hands, gives me dreams, promise me all great plan and love.

So in HIM only, I will draw Strength.

In HIM I will hold on my dreams, living my life like I'm dying.