Another New Chapter In My Life

Dear Blog...

It's been too long to remember the last time I wrote this blog...

"Biane"..(Sorry in Korean)....I don't mean it but just did it...hehehe..

Well..I'm back on track again now..

Oh My God..I have a lot of things in mind to write...I really missed writing in this blog..I must say dat I do regret neglecting this blog..

Well...let's just forget about the past..and lets just start a new chapter..

A Fresh chapter begin....

Tonite..well just couple hours before, I received a call from my mom..

She said dat my dat who just went through some check up for his health has diagnosed to have a problem in his lever ( or heart in Indonesian)...

The first time I heard the news, I wasn't so shock....

Well at first it just feel like an ordinary news...I didn't really put a lot of mind about it...but after a while..I started to think...

After doing some thinking and talking with my mom, I started to feel scared...I feel like something bad gonna happen...

And I just pray..not a long prayer..just a short one..I'm just praying " God, don't let any bad things happen to my dad"

I did thought about the possibility dat my dad will get a serious illness...

But the second I thought about dat, I immedietly try to not thinking about dat...

I don't want anything bad happen to my dad..I sent message to the prayer meeting members (dat what I called them)...

My message was dat I'm asking them to pray for my dad...for his health...

My mom said dat my dad will have a second check up this Monday..

I will pray that God can works a miracle to my dad..I pray dat with the power of the Lord, all bad things and illness begone with His blood..

This might be the time when God want to test me..What I can do is to surrender everything into His hands...and just believe dat He will gives the best to my dad...With His love and His power, I shall leave everything into His hands..and let His plan happen in my life..

My cry and prayer tonite is " God, please forgive and have mercy for my dad...God don't let anything bad happen..I trust You Lord..."

I have been through a lot in my life...I've grown..I've learn...

I want to be wiser.I want to be more mature..

Yesterday, ko Heru said dat me and Army are ready to be a caregroup leader..I was trilled..But am I really ready?

I have doubts in my mind about my self...but if God say I'm ready, then I am..couze I don't really understand my self and I don't want my flesh win me and make me weak...I can do everything through God who strengthen me rite?....

Yoso reply my message and gave me this phrase from bible:

Exodus 14: 13-14

"And Moses said to the people, " Do not be afraid. Stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord, which He will accomplish for you today. For the Egyptians whom you see today, you shall see again no more forever. The Lord will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace."

I believe dat God wlill also fight for me....and I won't be afraid!!

Tommorow we have the final volleyball match againts International team..

I hope we can win and be the third winner in this MO competition..

I also pray dat everthing can go smoothly for the supporter contest..

I pray dat they can perform their best..give the best and be happy..

Starting today, tonite, I will go back to God..

I will continue my relationship with Him..I'm coming back to the Heart of Worship...Because it's really only You Lord God the center of everything..the source of love...

Tommorow's agenda is:

1. Support the volley team
2. Supporter Contest performance
3. Find the stick for kungfu
4. Remind wella to bring GRCC's cloths
5. Do laundry
6. Send my Econ Hws and my TC hws by email
7. Borrow vacum cleaner
8. Start Fasting and pray for my dad
9. Cleaning up my room

I going to sleep now and I'll just lift up the rest of tonite into you hand Lord...I believe dat tommorow will be a better day...

I love You Lord

Sarange...Love...mom, dad, bro, army, vjyes, friends