~*Counting Down My day to go back to Indo*~

Right now, don't know why, but I really don't want to pack all my stuff. I don't feel that I want to move, I don't feel that I want to go back to Indo.

Is it maybe because I'm just too lazy? or is it maybe I just not in the mood?

I don't know and I'm not sure, but for now that is what I feel.

Today is thursday, me, army, mar, and heru went to Olive garden for dinner. It was a good dinner, all food are great and we had a long conversation after that. I'm not going to say that it was a fun one, but it was good. We talked about "marriage"!

The most popular subject lately around heru and mar. Not that I againts their marriage or anything, but I just don't like it when I need to muggle around their conversation with that subject.

I think I'm just not ready. Not ready to be an adult with full responsibility. Not ready to have a real life, not that my life is not real now, but it just still have my imagination touch into it.

For me, marriage is such a big step. It is a different and new world for me.

Just not ready yet and I also don't have the confidence to have a marriage with army. Well....the bottom line here is, I just NOT READY YET!!

Anyway, these past few weeks, I've been slacking around, have funs, do nothing except for watching a lot of movies. I have a crush honestly saying..hehehe..as always...with the guy from the movie.

Right now, I really like 2 guys...not only they have a look dat can make ur dream come true, but they also talented...as always, I like talented people...hihihi..

I think I need to open a school for only talented and special kids..hehehe...or should I also restricted to boys only?..hmm...dat's interesting ha?..well better not get all that running in my brain too long..

Anyway, just like cute n smart guys, who doesn't ha? eventhough u have a boyfriend, but dat not gonna stop u rite? since all just imagination..u enjoy it, u like it, but it's not real..

I also like chinese songs rite now..they are so sweet..love them..

Now, I also strungle with my money...I really want to buy my mom an expensive bag, but my bank account say dat I can't do dat...crap rite?...

It's all rite, I'll just have faith in it...I really want to give my mom the best..well not only my mom but my dad and bro too.

I wish dat I can introduce Jesus to my mom and dad when I go back to Indo...

I also wish dat my bro can trust Jesus only and put all of his trust in Him..

Well, I believe everything has been planed by God Him self...

I will just need to follow...

I'm going to bed now..I hope I have a good n nice dream...

Oh btw, Grey's Anatomy is really a good drama...but I still like all my K and J drama..hehehe..They just more romantic...

I hope I write some more before I go back...maybe I'll write at the airport while waiting for my flight next week...so, we'll see....

God...thanks for everything..really, thank u...

Love U God and bless my family (mom, dad, bro) and Army and my drearest friends...

Good nite...GBU all