Dear Diary.....Please Forgive me


Today is just another useless day..I still a slacker...
I did went to watch movie today (finally...) with chandra and pauline.
I did watched another series movie again today, but I didn't done any tasks that I suppose to do...
Oh My God..I really feel awful!!
I know dat it's not the rite thing to do, but I still do it anyway...
Everytime I want to clean my room and do my homework, I always postpone it and still think dat there is still another day.
But time flies by and won't come back and all my tasks won't wait either.
I hate to lose so much that I never want to stop arguing with others. I hate lose so much that I never want to be look down by others.
I hate lose so much that I dare to accept any challenges.
I hate lose so much that I value my pride high above.
But as much as I hate lose, I have been a loser everytime.
I didn't lose to anybody but I lose to my self.
What a shame,
a person who hate lose so much but always defeated by her self.

God...I don't want to lose anymore..
That is why, I want to keep on trying to win.
I will keep on trying to control my self.
Once said that a winner is a person who can win againts him self.
Because the biggest enemy is ourself, not others.

Starting tomorrow, I will change....I will defeat my self.
I want to have a good self control God...
Don't let evil take control ya Lord...Please help me God..
I know that I cannot gain victory without your bless.
Please bless me ya Lord Jesus...love u so much Lord..

Today I also wanna pray and give thanks to God for blessing my father...thank you ya Lord that You have grant him the health and give me anothe opportunities to let my father know about You Lord..
I also wanna pray for Livie ya Lord....if today she went to the ER because of the wound with her lips, I pray Lord with Your blood that You heal her Lord from all sickness and wound. I wanna pray that You keep ko franky's family stay calm and loyal and surrender everything into Your hand Lord..
I also wanna pray for all of the caregroup members...Let us have more wisdom in dealing with our problems...Let us have a stronger relationship and experice Your love....I pray that for the next students that are coming to GRCC will bring a good impact for all....and will be able to experience Your present ya Lord...I also wanna pray that if rite know I fell a bit pain in my stomach, I pray that with only Your grace that You heal my pain and ill. Thank you so much ya Lord for all of Your love and grace and bless for all of us..Thank you God..We love You Lord Father...