"Learning To Grow and being Mature"

I once read that growing is not automatic or natural, but it takes willingness to grow and effort.
We learn to grow and mature through Failures and Mistakes. We gain Victory after Failure.

Today like what was said by Dr. Bailey at Grey's Anatomy to Dr. Stevens "You learn from mistakes, failures and disappointments. That is how you become mature"

This is really true and I believe God also wants us to learn and to become mature.
Today, I have lost my battle. I've become lazy, bitter, lied,etc..overall, I'm not fruitful.
I could say that I'm just a mere human, that's why I still do these mistakes..I'm not perfect.
But I don't want to use my flesh as an excuses!
I know that my flesh is not perfect. Devil could easily use it to against God.
But I have the Holy Spirit, I should be able to control it.

And as I want to grow and be mature, today's failure is tomorrow's victory!
I will learn from what i did wrong or didn't do..
I admit all my mistakes and learn how to do what I should do!

As I read 1Samuel 1-10, I've learned a lot.
I've learned that Father gives us enough time to learn.
Like Hannah, she was faithful and God sees that. That's why Hannah was given Samuel.
When God gives Hannah a child, He didn't just give ordinary child. But He gave Samuel, the chosen one.
When I read the story of Hannah, how adorable her husband is. Her husband loves her so much although she didn't has any child. But she still faithful to God although all the teasing, all the heart broken, all the tears. From all of those, God gave her the best child.

I want to be like faithful like Hannah. Right now, I want to focus and always focus to God.
Hold onto His promises, I'll go to war.
Using His words, I'll wear my armor.
Borrowing His strength, I'll conquer souls.
Together with Holy spirit, I shall be use as God's servant.

Lord, tomorrow will be the victory over today's failure.

When I ask and pray for CG members to just join our CG, God gives a hunger heart.
We struggling with reaching out..we desperate..God answers our prayers.

Today is the day, You have made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.