Lazy Virus Attack!


Today, or up until today..i announce that I am legally being ATTACK by LAZY VIRUS!!!

After my fun, adventurous vacation to San Francisco, I've found my self back to the old disease!
Room stay messy, kitchen stay dirty (my bro just washed dishes, thanked God!), bathroom still messy and my life still in a mess.
I haven't been to Kent church..have been absent for 3 times i guessed???
Haven't been in touch with God..last week sermon seems to be months ago..I haven't been active with my spirit and devotion.i have tons of sins build up since i have to come up with thousands reasons to skip everything that i used to do..or regularly do...

How i get this virus? well..do be honest, it's been inside of me since my birth i believe, i were born with this virus..it's in my blood...it's running from my head to toe..
is there any cure? only God can stir up my self, can push me forward..which is what He's been doing..I'm so sorry Holly Father, that You have been pushing me all this time..but as always without fail, i will fall to the same hole..

Why i let this happen? I have no idea!
So what are the symptoms? A total lazy body and mind..
I will just stay put in my room, watching tons of movies, laying in my bad, only stand up if i need to, not going to pick up any phone, will sleep more than 8 hours everyday!

How will i cure this disease? well, it doesn't cure totally, but i could have the symptoms disappear for some period of time. How? by allowing God feel me with this guild from my responsibilities!

I will move my ass, if I'm feel with the guild of not being active in my caregroup or creative ministry or church activities..

Oh Lord, just now, thinking of the coming mini olympic even make me lazy even more..make me itchy..

Thanked God that the kent church is vacuum for summer..so i dont have to worry about going to kent..no caregroup..but will be replace with tons of other activities from mini olympic.
There is dance ministry that we should perform by the end of this month..but do we practice? NOOOO..so do we ready? NOOOO
There is also the Corn BBQ that we need to sell by the end of this month..do anybody prepare for it? NOOOOO..
There is also dodgeball competition that I assigned as the captain. Do we ever practice? NOOOO
Not to mention the creative or FAITH ministry..we suppose to do singing (ngamen) at downtown Seattle..do we ever practice? NOOOO..will we do it anyhow? I DONT KNOW!

Why on earth do i have this tons of activities? I dont want it!
I mean i like to get involve in stuff..but i dont want to be incharge on it..oh Lord..

I'm single, young and healthy..but I feel tired and lazy..lost my desire..lost my passion and compassion in what I'm doing..
Right now, the only thing that I still have a little passion is my work..But I don't want to get married to my work! and i know that my work is temporary..i'm not gonna stay that long at work..

Oh Lord..if I go back to Indo..i might feel refresh for awhile..new environment to adapt.
But in long term..have no idea what do to..no sense of direction..not to mention with my disease and living with my parents again..don't get me wrong..I love my parents but to live with them again after this 6 years of living by my self and making decision all by my self..i'm not sure i will be happy leaving the other way around..

Sometimes i just feel that going back to indo means that I have to trade my freedom with something else. as much as i feel bored living in US, i also dont like the idea of giving up my freedom...so what i do? stay in US as long as i could..praying and hoping that i will find my soul mate here...

But now..do i know what to do? NOOO