Yesterday, I had a Melt Down!

Sighh...i dont know why..somehow cant say dat im strong...i think a whining too much lately.

Btw God really wants me to learn more..not being ignorant...humble and love my self..

To be honest..im very exciting going back to Indo in 2 weeks..
BUT..there's this problems with the process of buying the townhouse..
too much problems and trouble and I keep on wondering is this means dat God doesnt want me to get the house? im so confuse cus at first it seems to all smooth but lately it seems to all troubles.

So i can only let God take the wheel of my life..guide me to where He wants..
If i dont get the house..i'll be going back to Indo..my mom finally support dat
But if i get the house..i might have to stay..hiks...
But here's my plan and God knows dat my plan always never be His plan.
But it I'm allow to make a plan, this is what I have:
i will get the house, stay in it for 2 more years until my bro graduate and I can forgood and rent the house to somebody else..and by the time, hopefully dat the renting prices will cover my monthly mortgage..i dont even care on making money..just enough to cover the mortgage will be great at this point! so i can just go back home to Indo and start something new there..

So know..let's think about alll good stuff now...happy stuff and happy thoughts
My happy mind is all in INdo...
I want to meet my family and best friends..miss them so much
Wanna teach my parents about internet..wanna spend quality time with my bestgirls..
wanna just be the old me..carefree..stress free and always happy..