The Walk of Faith

2cor4:16-18
¹⁶Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. ¹⁷For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. ¹⁸So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

After reading this passage and reading Purpose Driven Life day 38, I once again convicted by God!
Today at work, I felt quite happy and excited earlier but then I let satan took place and take control. I started to feel angry and upset. I started self pity and whining. Why do i do this work, I asked my self. Why I have to do it? Why nobody help? Why and Why..the whine is on and on..
Then I let it change my heart, my emotion.

After I think about it, I realize from 2cor4:16-18, God really wants to teach me to trust what unseen. To have my faith in Him not in my capability, not in my guts, not in my speculation, not in what I've seen, not in what i hear...but in God..although I might not hear it, not seen it, not making sense, but I need to once again trust God!

After talking to YS about my struggle in serving in Kent, i felt relieve a little bit. Somehow she seems to speak out my heart, my desire. She says what I want to hear and what my heart been screaming. But I could also felt that my heart is unease. Then after my devotion, I realize it's because it is what I want to hear, what I want to do but it's all just about me. While Rick Warren mentioned that we need to be less of us..not self centered but more people centered. Not always thinking about what we want but what others want. I think from all the things that I experienced, this is one of the biggest obstacle.

I often change my plans right before the time, I didn't think of others. I usually want to do what I want, not thinking of others, I watch and say what I want, but not others, I usually force or manipulate people to believe or say what I want but not others..

I do realize that many of the problems that I have is because things just doesn't goes according to what I want. Or because I wasn't the main player.
I'm sad because I think that I don't get what I deserve.
It's all about I or me..and I'm tired of it..

God, please borrow me Your strength so that in everything that I do everyday, I could be less of me..I could be more of people centered than self centered.
Forgive Lord for I've been very selfish all this time.

In the bible, Paul want to teach us about the Walk of Faith from 2 cor 4:16-17 and 2cor5:7 and 1cor12:7-10
Truth:
We must learn to see our weaknesses as a means by which God perfects His strength. In our weakness, He receives all the glory when He moves through us with His power. We must learn that trials and difficulties will seem light and temporary when viewed from perspective of the immeasurable glory that awaits us in eternity. We must learn to live by Faith and not by what we can or cannot see with our natural eyes. remember that His grace is sufficient in all situations.

After reading this, I felt glad. Glad that God uses our weaknesses. Glad that from it, God could be glorify. I'm full of weaknesses. I couldn't hide them neither erase them all...but what I could do is to make decision to use my weaknesses to bring Glory to the Lord.